Ughh! I'm so frustrated! (Yes, that is me venting.) For about the past year I have repeatedly attempted to get somewhere in my life...and have ended up moving 4 times, losing 2 organs, withdrawing from 1 school, and simply feeling thwarted time after time. I never run out of things I really want to do, and I love working hard, so illness is particularly difficult for me to deal with. When I got pneumonia about a week ago, it just felt like the last straw. When my body simply won't collaborate with my mind, I start feeling a little annoyed. How can I be sick again!?!?! Oh well, it won't last long.
I'll bet that in a few years I'll look back and laugh at my own impatience. I bet I'll feel grateful to have conquered this challenge and moved on to other things -- and I mean to do exactly that. And, if I was to speak truly, life is incredible! The wonder of it all fills my senses, so that I care very little if I must experience it more slowly or differently than I intended. There are joys and excellencies to be found in every condition in life. Some do provide a bit more of a chase than I'm used to, but I manage to catch at least one or two every day. Those few and frequent happinesses make the frustrations shrivel and return the song to my soul. With such pulls at my heartstrings, how can I keep from singing?
26 May 2010
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